Gathering

上个星期五,我和以前的housemate就约好下去KL和他们聚一聚，虽然我们的相聚的时间很短可是我们还是和以前一样总是无所不谈然后做有做没有的，很庆幸的是虽然我们一年才见面一次可是那种朋友之间需要有的默契我们还是有的。在你们面前不用顾什么形象，饿了就说饿，想要骂粗话就骂粗话，想要比中指就比中指，有好吃的就尽量吃，基本上在你们面前我是没有形象的！希望明年我们的相聚可以知道你们过得比现在更加好. Hey bro Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2013. I treasure our friendship from the deepest of my heart.

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很多人觉得这一天是应该做一些比较特别的事情的，可是对我来说我还是一样照常的上班，而且这一天issue还特别多。可能值得纪念的就是，我的issue已经被escalate到顾客director的level咯！那个时候我真的是失控了，我有太多的顾客要管了（德国两个，美国一个，马来西亚四个），我已经没有能力去让每一个人都开心，我只能先管那些top urgent的，没有urgent的就等到它urgent了才来弄，然后慢慢的把我需要做的都把它带回轨道。那一天真的很辛苦，连我buyer问我：你还好吗?我说我一点都不好，我差不多要死了，那些我顾不到的只能先放给它去先。我的senior还跟我说我做back up的那个customer要我做full time.不懂是真还是假我直接跟我的senior说不要，我还计划在我的同事回来的最后一个星期1/14/2013放手给它去，完全不要管haha. Tough day 121212

25岁

一转眼，在这个世界上也活了四分之一个世纪了。基本上我们家也没有怎样庆祝生日的，只是上了大学同学又帮忙庆祝而已。今年就想我已经有能力了不如就买一个来慰劳我的老妈一下。照片上不见掉的那一粒就是它吃掉的。

脱节了？老了？

觉得自己跟这个社会脱节了，刚才和朋友打完球吃晚餐过后就决定要去那里喝茶，其中一个就提议不然我们去snowflake我就问他cornflake我知道是什么，snowflake是什么来的？他才跟我说是甜品店haha.有时候连朋友约我去看戏，我都说不如我们找一个咖啡厅坐下来喝一喝咖啡就好了。他问我是不是戏院里的戏不适合你看？我说不是这样的只是已经没有像几年前那样有那种去戏院看戏的冲动了，我只是想静静地坐下来享受咖啡，聊聊天的感觉。

很痛

大约三年后的今天又在同样一个地方受伤了，我的脚的大拇指又在受伤了指甲整个要起来了，又要去找医生帮我拔起来。都已经穿鞋了还会中！！！walao eh...

follower to lead

在两年前，才要开始找工时就觉得我应该就只是一个很好的follower我连leader的边都沾不上。就连我的第一份工也是跟着别人的指示走完全不需要做一些重大的决定（如果有我就refer senior或manager），在那里senior过我的人太多了（其实我是最junior的那个）。可是在jabil才做了差不多一年基本上我只做了十个月，就已经是那边的senior，明年分分钟就要做lead了.总觉得自己没有这种能力而且也还没有准备好，可是这间公司的turnover太高了，我已经没有时间去判定我到底准备好了吗。只要有人走我就应该要随时takeover，所以我现在也很怕我的senior会走人，也没有时间去鸟到底有没有准备好，更没有时间去想自己有没有那个所谓的自信。有的只是每天都在锻炼自己，好让自己随时都会有takeover的准备，只是不要搞砸了就好。

Words to my mum

Some words to my mum and her sister who treat me like her own son. Hey mum I am a bit lazy and not really smart, I am not that kind of student who manage to enter Ivy league university or be the top student in school. What can I do is just graduate from university and tell you the truth I am very grateful that both you manage to attend my graduation and when every guest come to my house they will go straight towards the piano to see our family portrait during my graduation, I fell like I have make my mum proud of me. Mum, your son, so sad to say that I really dont know how to cook, I am not like my little bro who are a good cook but I know how to drive, I willing to bring you to any restaurants and just have a rest and dont cook on weekend and lets have a great dinner at least during the weekend, just want to let you know I am very happy when I saw both of you eat shabu shabu for the first time and my mum done a very funny thing, the silver bowl and the electrical heating things is meant for the person sit in front of the things so it design so that in front of each of the customer there will be both of this things and my mum simply conquer mine one and become her cooking she basically dump everything in mine and her silver bowl, we share both of the bowl. It was a well worth and satisfied meal. Just want to let you know, Your son may not be rich like a billionaire and need to live with you because he has no money to buy his own house but I live within my mean, I manage to give you some pocket money and sometimes bring you to shopping and I still afford to buy you haagen dazs and JCO. To mum sister, if you want to come over our house I am just a phone call away, just call me and I will go your house to fetch you its really not a big deal to me. Obviously when both of you happy it just make my day better. Lastly it is just so great that everyday there must be one person who waited me to go back from work and ready to open the gate for me. I love both of you deeply and it will be until end of my life.